I deserve...

I deserve someone who is

Loyal

Compassionate

Attentive

Supportive

On a similar path in life as me

Who pushes me to be better

That reciprocates the love and things I do for them

Someone who RESPECTS ME

Someone who is good in bed

Loves PDA

Understands that I get extremely jealous

Works to build my trust

And ultimately someone who, if even if they don't have all these features, is willing to work to develop them

I deserve these things because I am loyal to my partner, I do anything and everything in my power to show them that I can be trusted, that I am your number 1 line of support, and that what we have can and will be eternal. I know I have issues that make me imperfect but they can be overshadowed by the love and care I show my partner. My loyalty and devotion has been my downfall plenty of times but I know, after every heartbreak, there is someone out there that deserves all I have to give and more. And I will not stop being that way because one dickhead took it for granted or exploited it. Most importantly I deserve these things because, just like I ask of my spouse, whatever is on your list that I don't already contain, I can develop just for you.

Flaws and All

                           

As time passes I notice, what I believe I am is only me remembering what I use to be. Relationship wise.

I am imperfection in its finest form.

This post is mostly for me. Grounding myself. Understanding me and why I am the way I am. Once that's all settled, then figuring out what I need to do and what my partner needs to do.

These post will be broken into a series that'll continue until I feel content. All I ask is that you, the reader, respect that I am sharing my world with you and that these are tender topics.

So part 1  

I have extreme trust and jealousy issues. I mean extreme. Why?

I've loved 2 people in my life whole heartedly. Both those people cheated on me, made me feel inferior to the women around them, lied to me, and were never completely there for me.

From that I've gained the broken trust baggage and jealousy scars.

Now, if I can't see you and what you're doing, you don't call or send me pictures, you still talk to people you have a "history" with, you're all secretive with your phone, and you express a physical attraction to someone else, I immediately don't trust you on top of being extremely jealous.

It's so deep that it becomes a physical feeling. An actual physical discomfort.

That's only part one. Unfortunately,  I have enough baggage to fill a moving van. I'm just hoping I find someone strong enough to help me unload this truck.

Lullaby

Black panties
Red lace bra
Waiting up for him seems like an eternity
But only he can lay my body the way he does
Only he can hit all the right spots
The neighbors can hear us through the walls
Lights off
One solitary candle lit
Cinnamon apple filling the room
Time is moving slow
Focusing on this moment
Waiting to hear his keys in the door
Listening in the silence for the sound of his feet coming up the steps
Sleep overcame me

Dreaming of his lips on both of mine
Goosebumps forming all over my body
Feeling his hands grab my ass
He's been waiting all day for this
And so have I
I can only fantasize what he would do to me
Soaking my panties with my waterfalls
Hearing the repeatedly noise of someone getting closer and closer to our bedroom door

Could it be him?

Like a burglar, he comes over to me
Covers my mouth
Pins my arms above my head
And begins tracing all my tattoos with his tongue
Anticipation is overcoming me
I have to gain control of the situation

I have to free myself
Jump over top of him
Ride him so well, his toes curl
He'll scream my name tonight

Black panties
Red lace bra
Tore to pieces

Sheets thrown from the bed
Earrings lost
Cellphones with cracked screens

The perfect night

Waiting up for him seemed like an eternity
Fucking him made it worth the wait
The perfect lullaby

Jelly Bean Test

Some relationships really need to be put to the jelly bean test. So what's the jelly bean test?

It's a scale of logic and not emotion. Many people stay in the relationships for pure love. Not because it makes them happy, that they've gained so much since meeting this person, or that life is of a better quality with them around. Its simple love, comfort, or fear. The love you have for that person keeps you there. The comfort of having the same routine or being with the same predictable person keeps you. Or the fear of the hurt that will come of having to say goodbye to someone you love or once loved. How do you do the jelly bean test?

Take two bowls, one for pros and one for cons, and a bag of jelly beans. Use the last month of your relationship for scale, if you've been together for over a year, use the last six month, 2 years use the last year and so on. With that put 1 jelly bean from every good thing that has happened in your relationship in the pros bowl and the opposite in the cons bowl. If the pros outweigh the cons, then you are just having a rough patch. But if the cons outweigh the pros you move to the next step.

Evaluation

Think, from the outside looking in, would you ever put up with what you already are? Have times gone from good, to bad, to worse? Is it worth it?

Complications with this method:
It can be extremely hard to see the good in anything when you've been in a gray cloud so long and vice versa. Also, never do this method in the heat of the moment. Trust that your judgement is squed. Clear your head, take a break, then proceed.

The jelly bean method is not meant to determine an end to your relationship. It's more of a strike method. Three strikes, you're out! So the first time you use it, you point out all the flaws that need to be addressed. Second time, you see what flaws have gone and which were added. Last time is suffer or call it quits.

In all, relationships should have only a few hills and speed bumps. Not mountains and volcanoes. Remember that.

Peace and love

Taking a Step Back

At what point in a relationship do you take a step back and really evaluate yourself BEFORE and AFTER this relationship. Are you better? Are you the happiest you've ever been? Have you gained more in this relationship or lost it all?

I sit here in my car, blasting music, contemplating these questions. The bare bones of my relationship is wonderful, but a girl is bored. ROUTINE IS NOT FOR ME. I need excitement, I need to get out, I need to receive everything I give to you in return. Simple, not quite. Numerous fights later, I sit here. On a "break" in my relationship with all my shit in the trunk. We took a break before, and it did wonders for us. I'm hoping this time would be the same. 

When you begin to be completely drained, that's the time to take a step back. People can get so caught up in keeping everybody else comfortable that they forget about themselves. That was me. But it all boils down to, what about me. Who's keeping me comfortable? When's the last time I smiled with no effort of my own? Who's taking care of me? What do you do for me? 

A change needs to be made and it needs to be made now! Only time will tell. Until then i'll be drowning my sorrows in retail stores, long drives, and blog post. Peace and love.

Dating: Multiple Partners

Dating. Scoping the scene. Fucking the woman/man across the bar in your mind. But in the dating world, it is very possible to date 3 or 4 people at a time. Now, how do you decide who gets the cookies or does everyone have an equal opportunity to reach into the cookie jar?

Is there a unspoken rule

You know those partners will scrutinize you for your rising numbers so do you do it?

or

Do you throw that to the wind and seek to find a partner that cares little about the hands in your cookie jar?

My rule of thumb: Don't do anything that you'll be ashamed to talk about later. 

Chime in, what's the unspoken rule or is there even one?

He plus 3

Let me educate you real quick

Polyamory, commonly confused with polygamy or polygyny, is a married couple with an EQUALLY shared and committed partner or partners that all engage in sexual activities TOGETHER. Simply a group marriage. 

Return of Kings

Polyamory is not gender bias or male dominated. It can be engaged in by the female or male, or both! Anything is up for grabs.

But does it work............

It can. Communication, ground rules, boundaries, and emotions ALL have to be sustained and established. Jealousy is the number one wrecker of polyamory. Polyamory can't succeed without mutual agreement from both parties. 

Could I do it...............

Definitely. As long as the idea is brought to the table on the first date. But if you wait until I fall in love with you, that option is off the table. If you even think that that'll be something you want to explore in the long run, let me know from jump. I'm one of those females that you need to do some research on before you take me out. 

I can dig it!

Could you do it? What would you do if a man approached you with this proposal? What would have to happen to open your mind to the idea? Talk to me.

Press Record

Naviel Skyy Photography

Sex is an art
Raw passion
Two bodies intertwining
Exploring
The pulsing of each others body
The sexual tension
Can't take it much longer
Set up the camera
Press record
Let's work for a standing ovation
Pulsing
Riding
Teasing
Grinding
Screaming
Moaning
Gripping
Scratching
Feel the climax
Fulfilling every desire
Let's make a movie

I like an audience. Essayer de nouvelles choses! - Try new things. Go buck wild, lose a few tracks, earn some new stripes, fuck that man like its the last thing you'll remember. Buy some costumes, put on a show. Watch your sex life evolve.

No apologies will be made.....

L'évolution des femmes is the unadulterated, uncensored, written transcription of the evolving mind, body, and spirit of a women. Sex, children, monogamy, polygamy, careers, and everything in between is up for discussion. No apologies will be made for any discrepancies in opinions that arise or personal offenses taken, this is an OPEN FORUM. Whatever is on your mind, SAY IT! Instead of saying "I'm offended", explain why you disagree with said statements, Simple. As adults, discussions can be maintained without negative impact. Only rules that are set here:

1. Don't pass judgement
2. Acknowledge that everyone's mindset is different
3. Be open to new things across the board

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