Friday, July 25, 2014

Taking a Step Back


At what point in a relationship do you take a step back and really evaluate yourself BEFORE and AFTER this relationship. Are you better? Are you the happiest you've ever been? Have you gained more in this relationship or lost it all?

I sit here in my car, blasting music, contemplating these questions. The bare bones of my relationship is wonderful, but a girl is bored. ROUTINE IS NOT FOR ME. I need excitement, I need to get out, I need to receive everything I give to you in return. Simple, not quite. Numerous fights later, I sit here. On a "break" in my relationship with all my shit in the trunk. We took a break before, and it did wonders for us. I'm hoping this time would be the same. 

When you begin to be completely drained, that's the time to take a step back. People can get so caught up in keeping everybody else comfortable that they forget about themselves. That was me. But it all boils down to, what about me. Who's keeping me comfortable? When's the last time I smiled with no effort of my own? Who's taking care of me? What do you do for me? 

A change needs to be made and it needs to be made now! Only time will tell. Until then i'll be drowning my sorrows in retail stores, long drives, and blog post. Peace and love.